Being Single Minded

Lately I've been thinking a lot about what it means to be single; especially being a  Christian Single, and the fact that I am a woman over 50. Well, THAT, narrows the odds considerably, in the "dating pool."

In all actuality, I have to admit that sometimes I am lonely, that I would like to be taken out to a movie or dinner, or just have the joy of receiving a bouquet of flowers or a sweet card; but then I look at the scripture and read the words of the Apostle Paul: "I have learned, in whatsoever state I am, therewith to be content."
                                                                      Philippians 4:11

Immediately I am convicted; why? First of all because I know where having thoughts like that can take me, and I do not want to have a pity party of one. I realize that even though, yes someday, I would like to meet a nice Christian gentleman, I have to be careful not to make that my main focus.

You see, I also realize how easily it would be for the enemy to take those simple, normal desires and spin them out of control, and get my mind completely off focusing on God and onto a desperate search for an earthly relationship. I know this because I've been there my friends, and saw how easy it was to slip into that mindset. Remember in the Bible where Jesus called Peter out of the boat, and asked Peter to walk out onto the water to him? As long as Peter kept his eyes fixed on Jesus, he was walking on the water, despite the storm and winds raging all around him!  However, immediately the moment that Peter took his eyes off Jesus, he began to sink.

I don't want to be like Peter in that respect. I recently set up profiles on some dating sites, and even paid for a month's subscription for one. Wow! What an eyeopener that was for me. First of all, it prompted me to write my previous posts about "Plenty of Fish in The Sea," and secondly, it made me realize how easy it was to lose my focus, to get "caught up" in the excitement of checking my email each day to see if I had a "wink" or a message from someone. It wasted a lot of my time, especially when the two men I eventually responded to, turned out to be not what they said they were. In fact, one was pretending to live in my city, when he was actually living thousands of miles away in another state, and everything he said to me was a lie. I believed it for a short time, but then when "red flags" showing up and I caught him in his lies and confronted him, I thought, gees, I've really been duped!

I haven't taken my profiles down from all the sites yet, ( I probably don't even remember my profile names and passwords) however, I blocked all emails from coming to my inbox, so that I would not be tempted to even go there again. Now just for the record, I have to admit that I have several friends who actually have found love on dating sites, but I have also heard numerous disaster stories as well. I have just chosen that at this time, I won't waste my time and energy going there.

I've decided that if God wants me to be in a Godly relationship with someone, that HE (God) will make it happen for me. Yeah, I know; some people think that is a totally crazy idea, as if God would literally bring somebody to my doorstep! However, I am in a place where I am choosing my focus to be totally on God, and that I am trusting him to decide if I should be in a relationship with someone. I am also reminded of these scriptures and God's promises to me.

Luke 12:31 "But rather seek ye the kingdom of God: and all these things shall be added unto you."

Psalms 37:4-5 "Delight thyself also in the Lord; and he shall give thee the desires of thine heart. Commit thy way unto the Lord; trust also in him, and he shall bring it to pass."

I am simply believing and trusting that if I put God first and foremost in my life, then he will take care of my personal needs and the desires of my heart. He created me; he knows me inside and out, and ultimately he knows what's best for me. Just like one of my favorite old hymns; "His Eye is On The Sparrow," if God's eye is on each and every sparrow, how much more is his eye on me, his daughter.

On a lighter note, maybe I should change the title of my blog, because, I am in reality, not losing sleep over being single; I rest in the peace that God is in total control of my life; even in my being single. :)

Searching For Boaz

For those of you who are familiar with the Bible, most of you know one of the most mentioned love stories in the Bible, is the story of Ruth and Boaz, found in the book of Ruth. When you have the opportunity, take the time to read it.

The Bible also mentions a few relationships that were "not so great" to say the least. Take for instance the story of King David and his "relationship" with Bathsheba. He saw her, desired her, lusted after her, and was left broken in his heart and spirit. However, God heard David's cry of repentance, forgave him and renewed a right spirit within him. Then, there is the story of Samson and Delilah; how she enticed him to the point that he revealed to her the source of his strength and she ultimately cut off his hair, and he lost not only his strength, but ultimately his life as well. My point to all this is to be careful and cautious in seeking new relationships, because all that glitters is not gold, and every man is most definitely not a "Boaz" which I am using this term loosely to designate a Godly man. So, that being said, here is something that will hopefully make you laugh and smile on your dating journey.  Read this next section closely; you may recognize some of your exes or current people in your relationship history. LOL!

This is a reprint from: LiveLifeHappy.com

To all the girls who are in a hurry to have a boyfriend, or get married; a piece of Biblical advice:

"Ruth waited patiently for her mate, Boaz."

 While you're waiting on YOUR Boaz, don't settle for ANY of his Relatives:

Broke-az, Po-az, Lying-az, Cheating-az, Dumb-az, Drunk-az,

Cheaper-az, Locked Up-az, Good For Nothing-az,

Lazy-az and ESPECIALLY his third cousin;

Beatingyo-az.

"Wait on your Boaz and make sure he Respects Yo-az."

I apologize in advance for the "az" part, but it sure does get the message across, doesn't it? I hope it made you laugh or smile today; but more importantly, I hope you take the time to see if you've dated or been married
aed to any of Boaz's relatives. Don't be desperate, dont' settle because you are impatient or because your eemotional clock is ticking. Wait on God; wait for YOUR Boaz!

As Always I remain: "Sleepless in South Carolina."

A New Year: Great Expectations?

This is a New Year; a time of new beginings, and for many of you, quite possibly, the year some of you may find a new relationship. So, with that in mind, let me just say that there are some of us single women, (such as myself) who desire a Godly man to build a strong, Christ centered relationship with.

My mind has recently been scrambled over how to seek out and find such Godly, Christian men. I admit, a made a quick dip into the "plenty of fish" dating pond, and a few others, only to realize, that all is not is as it appears in some of these men's profiles appearing on these sites. Hence my last three blogs about "plenty of fish." LOL!

Now, I have heard stories of how some women have found wonderful men on such sites, however, more often than not, I have also heard the most horrific stories as well of lies, deception, and other things too crazy to even mention here. I am sure that there are a few trustworthy and reliable Christian dating sites out there, but I have recently decided that perhaps the best thing for ME, is to just wait and allow God to send me a Godly man. Some people think I am crazy! "What! You expect God to just drop some man on your doorstep?" LOL!!! Well, maybe I am crazy, just saying. What I found was that I was spending precious time looking over numerous profiles,  and at the end of the day, I was exhausted, depressed, and felt like I had not only wasted a good bit of my time, but also energy and money as well, persuing the elusive butterfly of happiness.
I started thinking how I could have used all that time, money and energy in much more productive ways? Then I started seeing just how desparate and needy, I was begining to feel. The final straw was when I finally realized what my focus was on; and that was my desparation to find someone (other than God) to make me feel good about myself. Whoa!!! I had to REMIND MYSELF of this fact:

"I have great worth (value) apart from my performance, because Christ gave HIS life for ME, therefore, has imparted great value to me. " Also I needed to remind myself of this:
"I am deeply loved, fully pleasing, totally forgiven, accepted, and COMPLETE in CHRIST!"

Wow!! God loves me; unconditionally loves ME! If I am never in a relationship again, ( and I truly hope that's not the case) but if it does come to that; I need to rest, secure in HIS love for me and learn to to be content. So, that, my friends, is where I am today. I am not "broken" because I don't have a man; neither am I ugly, or have low self esteem. I am a beautiful, daughter of the King, and He knows my name, HE knows my heart, and I believe that He will send me the desires of my heart, and I won't have to grovel to find a good, Christian man, as long as my heart is focused on God.

This reminds me of a recent post by Bryan Totten, in which he said: "It is many people's expectation that you will one day meet someone who will suddenly fix your every hurt, give peace to your every trouble, and fill your heart with love. I'm sorry, but you will be disappointed. Only Jesus has that power."

Amen and Amen. So many women are wounded. Our hearts have been have been hurt and broken by past relationships. We have allowed someone to strip us of our color and personalities. We are depleted. We are searching for love in all the wrong places for all the wrong reasons. Once we find our true significence in Christ, and allow him to heal our wounded and broken hearts and fill us with HIS joy, then and only then, will we be ready to receive the love from someone here on earth.

So, at the beginging of this New Year, my expections are those of bettering myself; of drawing closer to God, of seeking HIS will for my life, listening to HIS voice and obedience to HIM. And if He so desires to send me a Godly, Christian man in the process, well, that would be okay too, but for right now, I am leaving the matchmaking up to Him!

As always I leave you: Sleepless in South Carolina. :)

Plenty Of Fish In The Sea; Part Three

Dear Readers;

I hope you have been following my three part series on "Plenty Of Fish In The Sea." If not, you can simply scroll down to view parts one and two. My initial post starting this blog, will be in the archives, listed in November.

As I mentioned in part one, as a young girl, I use to go fishing quite often with my dad, and then as an adult, I took my daughters fishing as well. I remember that there use to be a product that you would spray on the bait (whatever you were using) that would act as an enticement to attract the fish. I thought this was like some "miracle invention." LOL! As I was recently recalling this product in my mind, I started comparing it to what men and women use today in the dating world to "entice" or attract the opposite sex. This post may seem humorous, however, we all need to be very cautious and careful dating these days. I know that there are still plenty of fish in the sea; good people that are available to date; however, we also need to be on guard and take note of what type of bait they are using, (or the bait that we are using ourselves) before we get "reeled in" hook, line and sinker. Pun intended.

Men use various means (types of bait) to get a woman's attention. Probably, the most common is flattery. Yes, I admit, this is a weak area in my heart and I am sure in many women as well. We want to be complimented, we want to feel beautiful and attractive, we want to feel desirable. There is nothing wrong with our feeling this way, however, we first as women need to understand that our most highest worth and value should come from knowing how God loves, values, and sees us. We should look to HIM FIRST for our value, and realize that God loves us unconditionally, without exception, and that we matter to HIM, regardless of our dress size, our outer beauty, our personality, or anything else.

Be cautious when a man immediately uses various words of endearment, or heaps tons of compliments upon you when you do not even know each other yet. This is their enticement they are using on you, to reel you in. Maybe their motives are sincere, but a true man of integrity will take the time to get to know you, before they start calling you dearest, babe, beautiful, darling and so forth and so on. they may also be the "touchy feely" type; they cant wait to touch you, to hold your hand, or put their arm around you, or hug you. Be wary of this and how this makes you feel around them. ( you may be so needy and desperate that you forget about the red flags popping up in your mind, because you are desiring the attention) If you begin to feel uncomfortable by their actions, stand up for yourself, & set a verbal and physical boundary. If the man is sincere, he will honor your boundaries, and be willing to back off and show respect to you. Men will often times be quick bearers of gifts; jewelry, clothes, perfume, or talk about taking trips with you to somewhere grand. keep your eyes wise open, and remember, many times there is an ulterior motive behind the gift. Often, it is just a prelude to get you into bed with them. Yep, I said it! Now again, I know that not every man is like this, but believe me, there are many that are. Watch out for the "red flags" and when you see them, don't think that it is a parade or circus, and run right to it; but get away as quick as you can!
Now, for something quick and humorous  I have recently noticed. Ladies, if you go on the dating sites, just look at the men's profile names. Sometimes it is scary to think that any woman would respond to a man whose profile name is "Thumper." Get real, are we THAT stupid? And, what is the deal with one out of five profile pictures shows a Harley? Jeez, if we were in the market for a Harley, well, I think that we would be down at the local Harley Davidson dealership!

OK, now for the women: what type of bait are women using to reel a man in?
I am sure that we too, are guilty of using flattery as well. Do we drop remarks about how they are built, or the car they drive, or how good looking they are? Do we wear low cut, or much too revealing clothing, make touchy feely actions? Do we hug them, hang all over them, and want to cuddle up next to them, and then when they make an inappropriate gesture, we get flustered? Well, if we do any of the last few actions, we are asking for trouble with a capital "T." Men are men. They look, they have feelings, & emotions, and if we deliberately entice them using our bodies as "bait" then what should we expect out of them? Get real ladies! Don't be a tease and not expect to get taken advantage of. If women do that to men, then they are sending them mixed signals. It's no wonder men are confused when women are doing their little dances of enticement around them, and then get angry if they take it the wrong way. Women clean your acts up. Keep your "girls" under wraps! When a woman comes on to a man this way, she is asking for that man to view her as an object, and he will begin treating her as one, as well. Ladies, be Godly women! Don't be so desperate and needy! Don't use your bodies as bait, because if you do, you are on a slippery road that will lead to a pregnancy out of wedlock. Don't think for one moment that by getting pregnant, that you will reel a man in. The final "bait" women use as enticement is the "I want to take care of you" bait. (sometimes also used by men as well) Many women are nurturers by habit. We long to have someone to "take care of," so we may cook for them, coddle them, and mother them; these can all become types of bait, and enticement, that we use to lure them into a commitment. However, the more we do, the further they get from us, unless they are one of those men who are looking for a "mother" and a "purse," in which case run, and run fast. Women were made to raise children not grown men who are lazy and simply want an easy way out. Beware of men like these, they will use you until you are totally used up, and them drop you for the next one they can find to "mother" them.

So, if you are reading this post today, do you recognize yourself in any of the above scenarios? Please be cautious in how you approach dating in the world today. Know that although there are still real men and women in the dating scene, there are also those who have a hidden motives, behind the flattery. Keep your eyes wide ope, and look for red flags; remember when you see them; it's not a parade or circus. 

Until next time, I remain;

Sleepless in South Carolina

Plenty Of Fish In The Sea: Part two

For those of you who are reading my blog for the very first time; I would appreciate it if you would go back and read my first post in November, so you will understand where my heart lies in writing this blog. This blog is not gender specific, and it is no way intended to bash anyone, nor discourage anyone who is ready to date again. In my last post, I spoke about all the "fish" in my life that had gotten away.

 Today, I would like to address another category of fish in the sea; those that are the "dangerous ones" that lie beneath the pretty, calm blue sea, in the deep murky depths. These are the predators that lie in wait; searching continuously for those who will become their prey. The predators seek out their "victims" carefully choosing the ones that appear to be the most vulnerable, needy, or desperate. I am sure that we all have encountered at least one of these "predators" in our lives. They are extremely dangerous; they are not only toxic, but have the ability to totally "snowball" us into believing that they are something good, when their motives are evil. If we are not careful and we "take their bate," we can put our emotional and physical lives at risk. They can strip us of everything that is good in our lives, weaken our walk with God, and take us on a journey to a place where we never had any intention of ever going to.   If we let our guard down, and not recognize them for who and what they are, they can consume us to the point where we feel completely dead, fearful, and insecure of being able to trust again. Now, I want to reiterate that not all "fish in the sea" are like that; however, not everyone out there in the dating land is what they appear to be, so beware, be cautious, and be ultimately careful when fishing in the dating pool or sea.

Here are a few of the predators that loom in the dark deep waters. First there are obviously the Sharks: usually they are the easiest the spot. Sharks are flashy, their fins rise high above the water, allowing us to recognize them as sharks. They swim around their prey, circling them, waiting for them to be isolated from the safety of being in a group of others, before going in for the kill. They are without mercy. Their one desire is to get what they want, with no regard at the least for their prey. Their appetite is deadly. You can easily recognize sharks in the dating field by their approach, by the words they use to entice you ( their bait) and by their constant need to get your attention through the wrong means. Sharks are usually pretty up front in their desires and express it in their conversations and actions. Their main goal is all about the physical connection (sex) and they will use flattery and endearments heaped up one on top of another, to get you to succumb to their charm. Beware of the sharks! When someone acts like a shark, swims like a shark, behaves like a shark, and you start to see red flags in regard to their actions and behavior, get out of the water, as quick as you can and get to safety immediately!

The next predator that is in the sea of fish, is the Stingray. Now stingrays usually don't attack people, so they may appear to not be a threat. Most of the time, it is safe to be around them, however, they can be deadly as well. Remember Steve Irwin, the alligator and snake chaser? He is the perfect example of what a stingray can do under certain circumstances. Stingrays in the dating world, do not appear dangerous like the sharks are; they come across non threatening, and seem to be safe to be around, however, given a little time, and the true colors of a stingray may start to appear. Little white lies, unexplainable actions or excuses. Red flags start showing up, so when they do, Pay Attention to them! Maya Angelou once said; people will show you their true colors, and when they do, believe them the first time; don't wait until the 25 time to believe them! Beware of the stingray, and don't be their next victim.

Finally, the last and maybe the least dangerous predator in the sea is the Jellyfish. They too, may appear to be safe to be in the water with, but watch out for their sting! Their danger lies in the fact that we get to the point where we feel safe around them. Then, something small happens, maybe they make a comment about our weight, or something else that is seemingly innocent. They may, start emotionally abuse us, but we defend them, brushing it aside, and not recognizing it for what it really is. Or, they may start controlling and subtly manipulating us in ways that once again seem so innocent at first, that we ignore them completely. Red flags, red flags, red flags! Be forewarned that this type of behavior is just a PREVIEW of what will soon come after, if we continue to stay in the water with a jellyfish.

So that, my dear readers, are my warnings about the predators that lie in the "Plenty of Fish Sea." Do you recognize any of them? I am sure that there are many good keep able fish in the sea, however, it behooves us to keep our guard up, and pay attention to the warning signs, red flags, especially when you start to see any of the behaviors mentioned above. Do not dismiss them, they are real. They are whispers coming up from your soul, warning you to get away, and get away quickly!

Keep coming back for more interesting tidbits about dating. This is a journey that we are all in together, and please feel free to leave any thoughts or comments you might have in the comment link below. Until next time, I remain,

"Sleepless in South Carolina."